St@Cy4eVeR :D

well, i dunno wats wrong with friendster, i write a lot of stuff but its keep post half half only.

anyway, its my life one day get mess up, if things doesnt go well me and my bf, if things doesnt just happen the rite way like i plan.. ITS MY LIFE!! watever is it, its my life, i will fix if my life didnt went well as i plan.

i love him >

Well, i guess some of people who always read my blog in the past knw bout this story. some might just heard the story from me. Still remember the day someone who told me tat im gonna b in dangerous include my family and my boyfriend (which now is my ex..lol). Story about a man who want to kill himself because i don’t accept him; the man happen to say that he himself hurt the most; the man who create a false accident to trick my feeling and my attention. Its such a shame for a man to do so; if a girl? ya its bad but if a girl i might just understand why they behavior so.. lol Allan Bong or Hong, cant really remember?!.. gosh.. is it so obvious.. lol anyway, continue the story, yea.. he did call to my phone a few times, and i so darn lazy to answer him and dont even wanna talk to him. i still remember when i write bout it he ask me to delete it. THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW BOUT IT~ since i post shout out just to tell him am not scare of him even he try to harm me .. either him or his friends that say that shits, cant really recall the incident. He told me that i will just regret cause i didnt give him a chance and didnt even wan to have any connection with him even just a friends. ya.. u knw what, F^&K YOU!!! its just so not me if i say something harsh

All sudden i felt stupid of myself. I know something but i just wont admit bout it. I just keep it in my heart till today. No matter hw hard is it, i just bare with the pain. Hoping thing would turn out to be great. I know what am doing just killing me from inside, its far more better if i just admit the facts but maybe not. Well, i think its better i keep in silent and never speak about it. I really confused and cant be myself. I cant pretend to close my eyes and say everything is fine when its not. I want to scream myself out, i want to cry out loud, i want to ease the pain i felt in my heart. I guess u guys wont understand wat the heck im writing here… let just let me say bout hw i felt now.. i dun wan talk things straight nw as im not prepare myself currently.. im not ready to talk bout the issue that i have in my heart currently..let just let things be its own way and see hw is everything gonna be later..~

cross my finger in my heart hoping things be better in the future

Love will lead you back again by Kyla

Saying goodbye
Is never an easy thing
But you never said
That you’d stay forever
So if you must go
Darling I’ll set you free
But I know in time
That we’ll be together
Ohhh
I wont try to stop you now from leaving
Cuz in my heart I know
Love will lead you back
Someday I just know that
Love will lead you back to my arms
Where you belong
Sure
Sure as stars are shining
One day you will find me again
It wont be long
One of these days
Our love will lead you back

One of these nights
We’ll I’ll hear your voice again
Your gonna say
How much u miss me
You’ll walk out this door
But someday you’ll walk back in
Darling I know I know this will be
Sometimes it takes
To find ur way back
Love will lead back
Someday I just no that
Love will lead u back to my arms where u belong
Sure
Sure as stars are shining
One day u will find me again
It wont be long
One of these days our love will lead you back

But I wont try to stop u now from leaving
Coz in my heart I know
Love will lead u back
Someday I no that
Love will lead u back to my arms
Where u belong
Sure
Sure as starts are shining
One day u will find me again
It wont be long
One of these days our
Love will lead u back

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-BiJcKkFPE

Well, everyone do wish everythings just going prefect and smoothly. Things doesnt always go according to our plan, honestly, there always something will went wrong, or just happen differently from our prediction. Sometime we do predict the events and things happen smoothly, but nah~ it wont just last long.

I remember i have a friends, who thinks that when he found love, everything wil be just great. No matter how many time i tried convince him not too think tat ways; he just ignore my words. Well, is a good things to think positive, and i believe everyone looking for love or just someone to have when they needed someone; and its not a bad things to look for the person. Just that some people thinks that when they got what their want, everythings will be prefect.Dont be so sure, well, is good to achieve what we want, but watever happen, just go with the flows.~ dun stress urself. If things happen, try fix, dun blame on others, dun seek for the reason why things dun go with the plan. Like i said, JUST FIX IT~ always blv and hv faith there have solution, always have hope that tomorrow will b better.

Thats hw things going for me. Me and my bf does look happy but doesnt mean nothing happen between us. Well, things does happen and i always blv there a solution. I look for solution and try talk to him. we made changes to make things goes better, if we not comfortable with the changes, we accept the wrong and go ease with each other, knowing thats nobody is prefect and everyone has their own weakness. We accept each other weakness, we do wat we can do, we fix wat we can fix.

hmm, some ppl thinks that being single is bad, some ppl thinks being in relationship is bad. Let me say something bout this, well, there nothing wrong to be single or in relationship. all of its have good and bad advantage. Being single? you have all the time with yourself and your friends, you get to do wat you wan. Being in relationship? having someone there for you,you can love someone and love back, just u lost a bit ur own privacy, share everything with ur love one. hmm.. i heard a lot of complaint made by my friends, when they complaint bout their bf and gf, some complaint their tired being along. Well, like i say, nothing is prefect, life just not prefect. Well, go with the wave, believe good things will happen …

I happy that me and bf are going well, if anything happen, am not tryin look who fault is, but i always try to think of solution. Sometime i do say things and do things stupid and silly but is because of the emotional things that affect me tat time.. haha..till i feel ok, i relax and calm.. yea.. i will think bout the solution.. hahah

Christmas is near.. got a lot of invitation from people around the neighbourhood…feel wan to go all the place.. but kinda impossible..whhahahah

Well.. i hope everything going well with everyone that i love. I know mine didnt end well. my maxis number is block, cant even call or mesej..all it was asking was the puk number. i hate.. and my mum start asking weird question but at least not something that will make me piss off..

I felt lost.. i felt dissapointed..i felt a part of missing.. obviously.. cuz he not around me. cant get used to that kind of feeling.. missing a part of me that always there, tease me, cheer me, laugh with me.. but now.. im just sitting with my laptop and my ps 3 controller. hmm..

i hope my holidays will be fun soon  since christmas and new year is near..  hope time to move more faster

well.. i dunno what’s wrong with me… just feeling down..

hmm~ there nothing much i can do.. all the things i plan just goes wrong.. i dunno what i did .. i dunno what the hack was happening.. i just know that i felt lost..

life seem short..(does this have the connection with the fact that am short… lol) anyway.. i cant do anything much.. just enjoy all the time i had

wel.. last weekend was very fun weekend.. had a friend come over to my place, we talked.. do some girly stuff..lol~ and share some interest.. watch movie.. i happy that i cheer her up.. and i amazed with her as she look more fresh and glowing nice aura huh~ lol… hmm.. life is shits… but things will be better in the future.. so no worry.. be control in the life.. never let the life control u
hmm~ have u ever have incident where someone very close with u ..talking craps about u… T_T gosh… and u never thought that person would do that.. and u thinks that u can depend on that person.. and trust that person as a friends.. even call that person as sister or brother..

wel, its happen to me..:( gosh.. if that person is someone i didnt know.. i dun even give a damn.. but this person..so close with me… the first time that person did it.. i forgive that person.. and i even ask apolgize from that person..( which i had no idea why i did) gosh.. there that person goes again.. with the lips that arrange words that blind others from the truth.. hmm~ am i that bad? what did i do?

wel, that person soon will get a long speech from me… never mess with pisces,.. never mess with me.. hmm.. i really hope i can do something bad to her.. but.. neh..no in the mood and i knw someone will tell me not to do ..just talk to her.. it be enough..hmm~ ok ok… since am in a good mood… that person lucky.. anyway.. wish all the best to all my friends hving the exam .. god bless all of us..damn.. i gonna have exam next week..T_T

all the best for everyone had exam… and am very sure i’ll do well in exam (i mean i pass) watever gonna happen later.. bad or good.. life have to be continue.. things soon will fall into places.. life never goes straight.. its always have up and down agree? i know i’ll be there.. faces the fear that will broke all the hope and faith into pieces.. but.. hope and faith always there, even its a little hope, just have faith thinks turn goods one day…… i know i will go through all the fears~ i know i’ll make my way.. to a way..where my dream will be fulfill.. gambathe everyone

GOsh! i hate it.. i really surprise it.. i had my lecture just now. ..as usual.. if my lecturer didnt told me that my financial report was not in the evelop where we submit it together as a group.. darn.. i will loss my mark.T_T

anyway.. i went to lab.. just print it.. and hand it to my lecturer.. mmm~ hope it goes well for me.. anyway.. hahha.. darn i dunno why today am just so hungry T_T even i ate oledy…~

T_T god blessed all of us ~

exam… when will u end..?

when will u stop killing people from within?

when will u just stop stress people ?

hmm~ wat the point hving exam..?

n what the point studying if its not for exam?

gosh.. this question just gonna stress me only.. its must better if i stress myself with my studies..lol~ its gonna help me in exam anyway..best wishes to all my friends.. people i know.. in their exam

Wel, exam is near.. left two weeks.. i had no idea wat i have study.. but am sure that i did study..lol~ anyway.. i been staying in villa all by myself.. hmm~ its remind me of that song.. ALL by Myself….~ (Friends drama- when joey has his own apartment and missed Candler.) anyway.. back to the my story, i did some few question, its was hard… i realise i hvnt ready yet for exam.. but.. after a while.. i get it rite.. i guess >

ya la.. hmm.. hw is studies.. i guess its all ok.. i guess.. ahah.. anyway.. life is ok.. just tired and busy as usual….. hahaa anyway… i bought a shirt and i redesign it..its really cool.. i know i like it very much.. but i really happy that he also like it.. hahah.. nothing make me more happy than to know he like it… hmm.. i hope its real… 

well.. i had become poor as usual.. i really dun wan to spend anymore :d but.. i wish i can buy one last things.. one last present for him for christmas.. well.. it be the biggest surprise i guess.. i hope :D 

anyway..wish me luck on my studies.. i only left a few topics to go.. and i know i will get it
 

i know i will passfor this time :d for sure